ARE YOU THE ONE?



I've been into deathrow and witnessed to the men. I prayed with Wesley Allen Dodd up in Walla Walla. He gave his heart to the Lord. Shortly after that, the Governor gave him a reprieve. Said, 'We're not going to execute you.' Wesley stood up and said, 'Oh yes you are. I've become a Christian. I'm gonna go and I'm gonna hang.' Now, I'm not gonna say whether I agree with him or what. That was between him and the Lord. That's what he decided. So, I'm not trying to give anybody any wild thoughts, here. I'm saying exactly what happened with Wesley. Wesley stood up and said, 'I refuse your reprieve. I'm gonna hang.' CNN News reported that he said, 'I have been saved. And I have been washed in the blood of Jesus. I have been forgiven my sins.' CNN News reported this. That Wesley stood on the gallows, and said, 'God showed me a vision.' How many know My people persih without a vision? He had a vision as he stood on the gallows. He said, 'God has given me a vision that after one minute after I swing down through this floor, I'm gonna stand. And the first three people I see are going to be my victims. I'm going to apologize to them. And then I'm gonna go and praise my Lord Jesus forever and ever.'

Well, here's John in prison, ready to die. Not for a crime he had commited; not for something he had done. But for serving God. A lot of us have been busted. A lot of us have been in trouble for doing things wrong. Let me tell you somethin'. I've been busted, now, for doing things right. I've had to go to court for preaching the gospel. Did you know that? And I can tell you right now, I'm ready to continue doin' things right. If I'm gonna get myself into some kinda mess, I'm gonna get myself into a mess that my Father is gonna get me out of. And I'm gonna be serving the Lord. My God's book, the Word of God, says, I will protect him, I will rescue him, for he acknowledged My name. That doesn't mean that God won't rescue us from the troubles we've done in the past. It means we have to repent and call on His name now. More importantly, we have to give Him our heart. This is what Jesus said, Go and tell this to John. Now, picture John in a dungeon and in chains. Thinking in his heart, 'God, I've done the best I could do. I've been out in the desert. I've preached boldly. I've spoken. I've done everything that I could do to prepare the way for the Messiah. And now, I'm going to die. My head is to be cut off. Have I failed You? Have I failed my call?' And then John the Baptist's homeboys showed up at his cell. And they said, Jesus told us to come to you and to report: The blind receive sight; the lame walk; the lepers [or Aids, if you will] are healed; the deaf hear; the dead are raised; and the good news is preached to the poor. And then Jesus said, Blessed are those who do not fall away on account of Me. You're going to talk to John the Baptist someday, brother, you're gonna see him. And you're gonna be able to say, 'I was with this long haired brother. And we were talkin' about you. And now I want to know, how did you feel when you were in chains? When they told you Jesus is raising the dead? How did you feel?' John's gonna look you in the eyes. You say, 'I don't know about this.' I guarantee it. And John's gonna say, I'll bet you something like this, 'I cried. And I said, Blessed be the name of the Lord.' And then he was dragged out and beheaded. Jesus spoke, and He said, No man born of woman has been greater then John the Baptist.

That day that I was in my mansion...Some of you are going to get my book. I'm gonna try to see to it that it gets into the library in here. It's called From Darkness To Light. But there I was in the mansion, bound up! Into the occult, into the devil, paranoid, panic attacks, full of fear. Going from one place to another, driven by fear. But I had a lot of money, so when I went from one place to another, it might mean getting on the Concorde jet flying to London. And then going down to Torke, England to hang. For no reason other than fear driving me. Thinking, 'I gotta get some place peaceful.' Sitting with a 357 or a 38 or whatever at my head. And saying, 'You ain't got the guts. You're a coward.' And then I would think, 'If I end this, though, how do I know what's on the other side? I don't know what's on the other side. All I know is, I can't stand this. I can't make this. I can't take this any more. I can't take it. I'm scared.' I'd be sitting somewhere and all of a sudden I'd panic. I can't handle it anymore. I've smoked angel dust. I've dropped pills. Doctors tell me I've done emotional damage. I've been abused. I've had problems in my life. And now, somewhere I did some drugs; or I did something. There's something on me! I can't get rid of it. I can't even say the name of 'Jesus'. If I would try to say, 'Jesus', I would begin to throw up, and panic, and want to run. I'd seen religion, and I didn't want it. But I had seen life, and I didn't want it any more. What do you do when your living where your neighbors own Tom McCann Shoes? You've made all kinds of money. You're living in the fast lane. But you forgot to check the exit sign. And all of a sudden, you look up and the exit sign says 'Hell'. But not only does it say 'Hell', the highway sign says 'Hell', too. And you realize, 'I think I'm already in it.' But you know it's gonna get worst. I said, 'I can't take it anymore.'

Some carpenters came into my house. They said, 'We want to pray for you.' [I cussed them out and fled to the opposite side of my house.] I was up in my master bedroom. And I said, 'God, I can't take it.'

I'm not going to ask for a show of hands, but I'll guarantee ya there's some in here that have had a spirit guide. Manson said to me, 'I've got power. I've got power.' I looked at him. I looked around. I said, 'Wow, done a lot for you, huh, dude?' All authority is given to Jesus.

An evil spirit spoke to me and said, 'Don't go down to those carpenters, because they are from the satanist church. And you are big in the satanist church.' If you will. I wasn't a member of the satanist church. But this spirit spoke to me and said, 'Because you played Jesus in Jesus Christ Superstar. And you are standing up singing 'rock' in front of thousands and thousands of young people. The devil doesn't want to let you go. So, he has sent them in here to pretend they're Christians. And if you say, you want them to pray for you and you want Jesus. They've been commanded to kill you! You want to talk about paranoid? And I prayed to God. I said, 'God, I don't know who You are. I don't know if I'm hearing from You. I don't know if they're Christians. I know they've got a lot of tatoes. And they look rough. I've never seen Christians like them. They look like my roadies. But I'm gonna tell You, God, whoever You are. If I get killed today, and I stand before You in judgment. I want You to please remember, I died trying to find You. I can't take it anymore. If I die, I die.'

And I went down those steps. And in a strange way, just like John the Baptist, I walked in. And I looked at the men. And I said, 'I will not receive Jesus.' 'Cause I thought maybe, they'd kill me if I said, I would. But I thought, I'm gonna out smart them. 'You pray for me in the name of your God.' I said, 'What God are you gonna pray in the name of?' They said, 'Jesus'. I said, 'You pray for me in the name of your God.' And then in my heart, just like John, I said, 'Jesus, are You the one, or am I to expect another? Can You take away the panic attacks? Can You take away the drug addiction? Can You take the trouble? the hate? Jesus, If You can, I need help.'

And they came over. And those men layed hands on me. And I had never seen anything like it. I didn't know men touched each other to pray. I thought you only touched each other when you were drunk, to lean on each other. And they'd say, 'Throw up that direction.' :) And they started putting their hands on me. And I felt panic come over me. And I started to run. And this one guy [who had only been saved for one week, and was a bit upset that I had cussed them out :)] put his arm around my neck [in a neck hold]. He said, 'You're not going anywhere, dude! In the name of Jesus, I take authority over that spirit.' And those men prayed for me. And I went down on my knees bound in hell. And I stood up a few moments later, washed in the blood of Jesus. And I said, 'Jesus is Lord!'

My Deepest Love,
Jeff
Prison, Summer, 1994


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